Have you ever caught yourself drifting off into your daydreams, thinking of previous moments? Previous events? Feelings? Although I don’t like to contemplate too much on the past, I’m a big believer in the fact that your past shapes who you are now. For we will not become the person we are meant to be without going through all of those moments and events and feelings that shape our beliefs, mindsets, relationships, etc. It is one road after bend, twist, hurdle, sprint, crawl, every propelling instance that sets you down the road you are on now.
I’ve caught myself numerous times this week thinking about situations and people that I have not considered for the longest time and I have to stop and question: Why? Why am I thinking about these events and people? The only conclusion I have been able to come to is that I am currently in a place where I would not have seen myself 5 years ago. I would not have seen myself married and living on a military base with my husband. I would not see myself living in Georgia or having to deal with deployments and specific family situations, job changes, or even broken relationships. We become so invested in the current place that we are in now that as we view ahead, as imaginary as it can be, our vision is ultimately blocked by the situations that surround us, yet we don’t see that until those situations have passed us.
I love dreaming about the future. I used to have quite a bit of anxiety about it, until I realized I only have a pinch of control in what happens in my life anyway. Yes we are given choices in life, but when I made the choice to follow God, I gave him the control over my life (which I wouldn’t have any other way).
So what happens when you realize you are not in the place you thought you would be five years ago? Do we get mad? Cry? Laugh? What is the proper emotion here?
Your emotion will depend on the situation you are in, but I think we need to remember that even the highest and lowest situations can teach you something. I would not change a single thing I have gone through in the past few years, because be in bad or good, I can pinpoint one thing I have learned from EVERY situation. I may still be grappling with some of it, but I know that I’ll get there eventually.
I encourage those of you who get anxious about the future to stop and think about what it is that specifically gets you anxious. Don’t be discouraged if you don’t find the answer right away, “A secret to happiness is letting every situation be what it is, instead of what you think it would be.”
Ecclesiastes 3:11 says, “He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.”
We will never be able to understand many aspects of this world. We may never understand why we have gone through certain things in our life, but let me tell you that HE has made everything beautiful in its time. Your life, relationships, your finances, your living situations: it is all made wonderful in HIS time, not yours. That might be a hard pill to swallow, you might think I’m crazy if you don’t believe in God, but the ultimate comfort to me has been the reassurance of a plan far greater than one I could ever plan for myself.
Let us trust where we are at in our lives. It may be a valley, it may be a hill. You may be on that hill in order to assist someone in a valley. You may be in a valley in order to assist the next person in that valley when you have overcome it and are on the hill.
Time is so crazy and wonderful and beautiful and mind-blowing. We could talk forever about time and how it affects our lives, but I encourage you to remember that you may think you have control of the time, but at the end of the day we don’t. So study where you are at, bloom where you are planted, and make sure to look at your surroundings along the way.